Feel really disappointed in you. My heart's been feeling really heavy since last night. It's been long since I wrote a post expressing how upset I am but I really don't know what to say to you anymore or what I should do. I've been angry a million times before but this time, what i feel isn't the slightest bit of anger but rather, disappointment, hopelessness.

All I have to say, I've said but nothing seems to have gone through your head. You even likened me to a nagging radio but would I even have to nag if you knew what or what not to do? Do you think i like telling you what to do or what you should be doing for the family? Quite frankly, i'm sick & tired but my anger or my words don't seem to affect you. I don't even know if you're bothered by the fact that this time, i'm not pissed mad & instead i'm feeling like the situation's hopeless & i can't do anything about it except to accept my fate.

Why can't you step it up & set your priorities & mentality right without having to be told? Why can't you have the same commitment I have towards this family? To ask you to do all that is demanding? What then do you suggest I tell you to do? Be a bum & idle around while I slog & give all I have to give for this family? You shouldn't even have to be asked or told what to do in the first place. You should know your duties, your role in the family without me telling you.

All I can say, I've said, but you just won't listen, you think I demand too much & you just tune me out. What am I left to do with you then? Should I just give up & let you be? If i do, you know how things will tirn out between us. All i ask for is your commitment but even that, seems like it's too much to ask.