Just started on a whole new drama series last night. Watched the first 2 eps of Awkward with Shane & it's really good! It's actually already being aired on MTV but why wait if you can watch it first right? :D Shane's off to the gym, i've got the next two eps buffered and ready to watch, very very tempted to watch it without him! If I didn't need the sleep so i can take care of Ky in the day, i'd have watched the episodes through the night, really addictive, & i've only watched the first 2 episodes! Go check it out if you can! I give it two thumbs up!
Side tracking, Esther Tan's on her way here to see Ky. I haven't seen her in months, almost a year (?) We had a little dispute that's why. But I'm glad we've sorted things out and patched things up (: Mom's taken off today so she's coming over too. She & aunt paid for our new bed that came yesterday. It's a pretty hefty sum, almost 2k & I know mom has her financial difficulties too but the fact that she willingly forked out the money to buy a good bed for us really warms my heart.
okay gotta go. Esther Tan's here! BYEEE!
it gets harder each time. i wish that somebody was you.
i won't be here if it weren't for kylie. but then again, sometimes it feels like ky's the only one brings me joy.
i don't regret having her on bit. but it's easy to stop and wonder if i'd be happier if things were different. so much to say, so much i've bottled up, i don't even know where else to channel all these emotions. I hate to rant here for the world to see how i really feel but if not here, then where?
it gets so so depressing sometimes, i don't even think you'd understand. i love ky, but these days, i'm wishing i was somewhere else, better if it were some where else with ky. or at least, i wish i had someone. i know i made the right decision for ky. I just don't know if i made the right decision for myself.
i won't be here if it weren't for kylie. but then again, sometimes it feels like ky's the only one brings me joy.
i don't regret having her on bit. but it's easy to stop and wonder if i'd be happier if things were different. so much to say, so much i've bottled up, i don't even know where else to channel all these emotions. I hate to rant here for the world to see how i really feel but if not here, then where?
it gets so so depressing sometimes, i don't even think you'd understand. i love ky, but these days, i'm wishing i was somewhere else, better if it were some where else with ky. or at least, i wish i had someone. i know i made the right decision for ky. I just don't know if i made the right decision for myself.
My lil' cupcake turned a month old yesterday. Can't believe a month's passed just like that. Last I remembered, I was in the labor room looking at my baby girl for the first time. Ky's gonna get her immunization jab later at the polyclinic. I was feeling really cranky this morning cause she last night, she woke up almost every 2 hours. Anyway, confinement's over (technically I called it quits about 2 weeks ago) & I really wanna go out & shop a lil'. The other day, Shane & I made our way to e!hub for some alone time. We caught a movie like the good old times. Yes, we're parents but we gotta remember that we're a couple too & it's important that we keep our love strong despite our now tedious schedules. We may be young but I sincerely believe in our marriage.
Approximately 2 more months and it's back to school for me. Having mixed feelings about going back to school. I know how much I'll miss Kylie when I'm in school & I'm afraid it'll be a distraction...Plus it's gonna be pretty darn stressful tryna cope with school and care for Kylie at the same time. Right, I'll post again when I've the time. Ky's crying for milk now so toodles!
